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Who’s the Adult Here? (Or, Reality Still Bites)

It’s a new year! Perhaps some of you, like me, have just spent a large chunk of time celebrating a holiday (or two) with your families of origin. And perhaps some of you, like me, have recently been pondering the distinct and all-encompassing weirdness that is being middle-aged in your parents’ home.

I first left home for college in the late 80s, and except for a brief post-graduation stint as a Kate-2
Generation X stereotype, during which I moved back in with my parents and worked a retail job, I’ve technically been an adult for quite some time. Yet within moments of walking through my parents’ door I can feel myself turning back into a petulant teenager, ready to pounce on any perceived criticism or parental overreach. Add a sibling, my spouse, and a few more relatives to the mix and my inner transformation to Kardashian-style stupidity is complete. What is this strange power they have over me?

(I should mention that all of my family members are remarkably loving, generous, and jolly – “putting the fun in dysfunctional,” as they say. They are, in other words, un-interested in such power and entirely undeserving of this throw-back in my attitude.)

Never mind that there are children around, before whom I am expected to act like mother/aunt. It’s possible that from their small perspective – given my power over them – I do indeed seem like an adult when I behave as I do. But I know in my heart of hearts that I am really only a wrinkled adolescent. All of life is basically glorified role-playing, and when I’m with my family the role I often play is one that was mapped out decades ago.

Now a new semester is upon me and I’m supposed to bounce back. Suddenly I am the adult in the room, the one with most of the power. I am the person who tells students what to read, how to write, and, let’s be honest, what to think (no, you are not allowed to say all Buddhists are spiritual or all Muslims are violent or Jesus was Christian). It doesn’t really matter how nice I try to be; in a system based on grades, students who enroll in my courses – technically adults themselves – have to do more or less what I tell them or face the consequences.

This makes me wonder: what role do I play in my students’ imaginations? Do I remind them of their mom, their coach, their youth pastor? (I’m pretty sure it’s not their youth pastor but you never know.) For that matter, what role do I play in my colleagues’ imaginations? Am I their bossy big sister, their daughter, or perhaps a childhood friend? There’s no way to know, of course, since most of us are unaware of the cast of characters who lie deep in our psyches.

The lesson I take from this is to tread lightly, to be gentle with the folks around me – both those who are subject to my power and those who are not. I’m never proud of myself when I revert to my childhood role, and yet I can’t always help it. It seems likely that others, if they are the reflective sort, are just as confused about why they act the way they do.

What does it mean to you, as a teacher, to be the adult in the room?  


Kate Blanchard

About Kate Blanchard

Kate Blanchard, Associate Professor of Religious Studies, Alma College Kate is currently on sabbatical near Atlanta doing a collaborative project with Dr. Kevin O'Brien (a friend from her pre-tenure workshop) about Christian ethics and free market environmentalism. When not on sabbatical, she makes her home in Alma, Michigan, with her husband, Rev. Chris Moody, and their son, Gus, a dinosaur and train connoisseur. She has taught at Alma College Buy Modafinil Online, 100% Delivery Guarantee or your money. Order Modafinil & Armodafinil online from the only American-run buy modafinil vendor in the world. since graduating from Duke in 2006. She is the author of The Protestant Ethic or the Spirit of Capitalism: Christians, Freedom, and Free Markets (Cascade, 2010) and co-editor of "Lady Parts: Biblical Women and 'The Vagina Monologues,'" which includes six pieces authored by her students. She mouths off now and then at the Huffington Post, and very occasionally tweets at @blanchard_kate.

Reader Interactions


  1. I have just read through a number of either negative or neutral student evaluations and I realize that despite all the energy I put into connecting with students, trying to live up to their expectations of an entertaining, commanding, nurturing, authority figure is not my wheelhouse. I am just going to have to be me and suffer the consequences. Someone they can’t label as a mother or wife or member of a family unit who has some power over them for 15 weeks. And I suspect my ambiguity plays a role in students having a hard time pigeon-holing me.

  2. “I am just going to have to be me and suffer the consequences” – I can totally relate! We really have so little control over how others see us. I try to focus my energies on being as patient and compassionate as I can possibly manage, and other than that I let myself be whatever I am at the moment. Hang in there!

  3. Familial scripts not only haunt us but shape us in positive ways I knew a young associate dean who everyone marveled at because he had a positive relationship with his boss (the dean) To everyone else’s mind, the dean was absolutely impossible. When asked how he did it, he said, “he’s my dad.” This young associate dean learned how to have a positive relationship with his dad and now models that with his dean. In the last decade, this associate dean has moved rapidly up the ranks and is now the provost at a large university. I love this story because it reminds us that, although we are all walking wounded, our experiences yet can build resilience into our character, opening us for positive change.

  4. (Someone on the FB page correctly noted that the implication that students are not adults is problematic. I certainly didn’t mean to imply that; the title refers mainly to myself feeling like a child.)

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